Denial

I smile…on the outside

But inside, I know

My soul …Is black

Filled with guilt

It’s my fault

They haven’t heard

A word …of truth

I follow the world

Every boy and girl

Wrapped up in themselves

Have become my role model

Jealousy

Why can’t I be… like them?

Condemnation

My reputation

On the line

I claim I’m fine

…But I’m not

I want to fit in

I sin

Betraying Him

The one who made me

Who I am

Anger

Frustration

Self-mutilation

My mind’s medication

…But it’s all temporary

I lack satisfaction

Worshiping this god, my creation

But no true relationship

Emptiness

A dark abyss

…My heart sinks

What’s the meaning of this life?

Trapped in confusion

Thoughts swirling in disillusion

MAKE IT STOP!

This war I wage in utter seclusion

I’ve hit rock bottom

My soul cries in pain

I know I must change

If I want to be more than this mess I have made

…Help!

Myself I disown

I can’t do it alone

I cry out to God

Please, make me Your own

Stillness

Peace floods my being

Christ redeeming … my past

…It’s all gone

My failures …distant memories

Thrown in the Sea…Of Forgetfulness

I am blessed…beyond words

And still, I wonder

How could this be?

It seems too easy

One minute I’m a slave

The next I’m redeemed?

Innocent blood

The currency that purchased my salvation

Torture, anguish and utter humiliation

He endured it all

For me

That was my penalty

But now here I stand

Completely free!